Is reality real?

I've recently been spending time watching some of YouTube's top channels and have more or less come to the conclusion that the content is very basic and limited and seems more often to repeat itself and revolve's around slagging and putting down other so called top end channels for click bait drama appeal.
It's very similar to these tragically sad reality tv shows which are pretty much falsely claimed to be real and of the moment.  When what your watching on most accounts are loosely scripted flimsy plots badly acted out by over privileged individuals that have never done a hard days work in thier lifes, which begs the question why hell do you watch this shit in the first place?
In most accounts to this fact we can clearly see the target audience to be the most impressionable of the younger generation which is a worry.
I'm interested that YouTube itself takes very little or limited thought to what kind of effect this has on the minds of those who are still growing into their own minds.
There is clearly very little guidance, but who needs guidance when a channel with five million or ten million and so on is making a lot of money for the business.
Remember that money has no feelings but it can be argued that money can make you feel.
I'll wrap this up although I'd love to dig deeper but I know how futile this all is.
I think it all boil's down to people love drama and in a sad way enjoy watching other peoples misfortune and misery, which is why people love soap opera's so much.
For most people its a fix a drug that makes them feel better about their own lifes and perhaps it helps them in some way to get through the week knowing that their are others out there feelings pain whether it's real or not.
Either way I'll think your find that Humans are very sick puppies indeed and perhaps it's time you took a reality check.

Tammy Bobbins (Cross-dressing Stories)

Tammy Bobbins

As sure as the sun rose in the light blue and fluffy, he was just plain Trevor Cockins, and as sure as the sun set in the murky black below, she was Tammy Bobbins.
Nibble on feet and danced the fandango with the best of them, admittedly on her own in his rented apartment but nevertheless her heels were on fire.
Licking the floor with lava filled footprints and leaving vapor trails across the bedroom floor.
Trevor slumped himself down on the corner of his bed and as he did Tammy Bobbins also perched herself down ever so prim and proper like and smiled back at him from the full length mirror which had seen better days that leant up against the wall, which if truth be told was the only thing stopping the cracked and crumbling wall from falling down.
Trevor pulled the cheap pink nylon wig from his head and wiped the sweat from his brow, lifed his right buttock and farted.
Tammy very carefully and with the delicate touch of a child's heart surgeon replaced the one strand of hair that had fallen from rank back into place, opened a small clutch purse and pulled out a rather antique looking perfume atomiser and puffed the air.
"Same time next week Trevor?"
Tammy asked politely, swirling her arm and hand around in the air as she coughed.
Trevor looked at the rose colored glass bottle in his hand and gently squeezed it.
"This was my Mum's..."

(Thanks for reading my tall tale, although not far from the truth for some.)

Audio Glitch Dark Undertones

Always have fun working on the creepy sounding ones the most.
I thought the whole intro audio mash-up was really creepy!
I've been working with a new pair of headphones "Panasonic HD10 High res sound"
50mm driver units - super rich detail... 😮

Black Mirror Nosedive Review

It was a Friday afternoon, my partner had the afternoon off, I was kicking back on the sofa and we stumbled across Charlie Brooker's Black Mirror episode, Nosedive, on Neflix.
I personally have an intertest in Charlie's anarchic style of video mash-up and writing, and hands down, it was better than having to sit through The Great British Bake Off! Having said that, I'm not a huge fan of Charlie's work, just someone who likes to watch good telly. Call me old fashioned, but there's good viewing and then there's just utter thoughtless shit on the box. And Charlie uses thought and lots of it, capturing the very real essence of social media rating systems. Showing us how we live in this not-so-fantasy world that was played out in this short but beautifully portrayed and powerful film.
For myself I would put me around the 1.4 rating, still struggling to get to that all important 4.5. I mean who's going to rate a 1.4?  Regardless of their skills or hard work through out the years.
As I watched I got a familiar sense of it's not what you know but who you know, and it's better being friends with the hip and cool "In Crowd" in the vain hope that they will pass you up the ladder and boost your ratings.
To be honest when I post a video, or piece of music, or a write an article, I'm the first one that likes it, hearts it, or thumbs it up.  I have to - I'm more or less the only fucker who's going to read it, watch it or listen to it.  Is that shameful or just trying to save face, or am I just proud of my work?  Like I said, I'm a 1.4. We do what we can, every little helps because nobody watches a YouTuber with a thousand subcribers or follows a Twitter account with a few hundred followers - are you fucking mental? They're obviously shit and are never worth a few minutes of your valuable lifeforce and you couldn't possibly been seen to be in direct involvement with them because this would harm your virtual street cred.
I guess the saddest thing here that rang true for me was the main character called Lacie who tried so hard to get her rating up by pretending to be someone she wasn't and to be in with that higher society of friends to further her dreams.
That is me as my comedy character "Kathleen Dawson". But oddly enough, Kate is liked, hearted, and thumbed up tenfold over me, the man who's underneath it all.  I actually have had the opposite result over the years and Kate is easily a 4.8 on the media social scale. And all I am is that person in the final scene screaming "FUCK YOU!"
Anyways a brilliant piece and I expect nothing less from Charlie Brooker. I happily rate this as a 5.0, all the stars.
Very good Brooker, now GO AWAY...!

Multiple Sclerosis Brain Melt

To make it perfectly clear if I upload a video about my Multiple Sclerosis it's NEVER for sympathy!
They are uploaded to either gain awareness give support to others or for my own study of the disease.
As the proud owner of said disease I am interested in how it effects my body and mind over time.  I can actually learn a lot about it just by watching myself back, and in return see where I am losing ground.
Recently somebody commented they liked the way I speeded my videos up!
The reason behind that is because I talk very very slowly, so you either get a video of me talking a normal speed which would make a standard video say six minutes long or I speed it up and you get four minutes and something that sounds normal and a little bit comical to the ear.
You have to work the illness in your favor - make the most of it - use it as it uses you...!
Unless you have the illness you can't know what its like on a mental or physical level.

Hopefully in some small way this will show you one side of the many faces of MS.

LOKI

YouTube Video Link

Nlin Loki Star Date today

The Children of Loki X-Rated.

Its been quite the trip...!
Unsure on when to finish... This rampant wild orgy of times gone by.
I think it's the attraction to scanning hours of vintage video clips, each one has its purpose
and lays a golden egg or two.  That one tantalizing moment of footage that changes everything...!
 I feel it's one of those grey areas of creating something that will just run it's own course and when it's time to move it to one side, I'll shuffle into the next concept?

Also it's been nice to spend sometime off camera, you can quite easily find yourself living your life on camera and this can be an unhealthy thing to do if your continuously updating the world or who wants to know your life's timeline and all it's in's and out's ups and downs.
Lucky enough I bounce off of most things such as writing and music making editing cross-dressing etc... something to do with spice and variety so I'm told...!

Naturally as a total nerd of video making of all flavors I do have quite a lot of what I would class "Basic Stock" videos to post.  I've actually held back over the last few posts and feel it's really not worth me putting up single videos anymore. 
And am much more comfortable uploading bigger chunks of video with more volume of content, as shown in the "Children of Loki" or "The Naturally Strange" videos.
Some one once told me "If your going to make a sandwich, then make it a meal."
So I equate that to my video making and make a real visual meal of it...

And what of Kathleen Dawson or Just Kate?
Again and using totally the wrong choice of words, It's a suck it and see type of deal...!
I have many plans for her for next year and have been working on a stand-up rountie for her.
I still hold this dream of taking Kathleen to the stage and trying her out on an open mic night at a comedy club.

Music: I thought I better add a few words about my current music making.
After getting slowly sucked into the COL videos I found that sampling the actual video clips could be quite interesting to play with.  Doesn't sound much, but trust me it opens a whole new world of fiddling... I.e. "Don't give up" very pleased with this cross over of video audio clips and music software, very interesting results... we be working hard to improve.

As always you've got to have dreams, when your nightmares are waking up each day and seeing what world we truly live on.
So there we have it... as about as much as I wish to report at this moment in time.
Things are pretty sweet at the moment COL will run as long as it does.
I will be posting some very strange, naturally strange videos.
Music is growing and turning a new corner.
And Kathleen will at some point take to the stage with a new look and routine...maybe?

Loki

Fire Seed

Fire Seed

A few years ago I was toying with the idea to write a piece of music that had that "Epic" and "Classic" eletronic dance feel to it, a track that had that catchy little thingy to it...!
I farted about as ones does pressing many buttons of vairous coloured shapes on my screen.
And after about three week I produced this tune "Fire Seed"
It does have a nice progressive feel to it and holds it own, even after a few years on the back burner.

The video is pretty straight forward and I wanted to re-vamp the the old one and use a more direct
appoarch with just a plain POV of a match strike slowed right down.
I will put my hands up and say that these two pieces of footage were sauced from the internet and are free to use. 
I am feeling a touch lazy... I know full well I could of filmed this myself... but "Meh" it was there...
And it saved me thrity minutes of farting about with lights and camera's and shit...!
But saying that I did up the contast and fiddled about somewhat bring the richness of the footage up a level or two, the orginal was a little dark to begin with I felt.
The overlayers are some still shots from a few years back, which I boosted with a few effects.
Just to really bring out the red and orange tones.

All in all a nice tidy little tune and video :)
Good day to you...


Music by: NLiN lOki "Fire Seed" 2011
From his imaginary album
MUSIC FOOD FOR ALIENSYouTube Video Link

Art Installation Hourglass Hard Boiled Ambient

From time to time there are a few people that have the balls to contact me and ask if I might make them one of my more abstract or avant-garde art looking videos.
A couple of months ago one such person did contact me and sent me a piece of their music in the style of ambience.
Ambient tracks can be somewhat of a nightmare when producing a music video, due to the fact that an ambient track can last anywhere from ten mintues to hours in length!
You think I'm joking...Trust me ambient is very easy when composing to simply get lost into.
Your music and your mind become the living dream of soft atmospheric melodies.
Here's a little copy and paste of the email I received from the creator of the music "Hourglass"

"Ok this is 9.30 long...really sorry, however you have great filling skills
i'm sure...
This is called Hourglass btw feat poet Matt Lovegrove, Matt is very dark."

Huh...! 9:30...! Dam girl... Dark...Good...
I've produced videos before now of this length, but the editing and time factors are huge.
When dealing with such mountains I always look for the quickest way to climb and use what I'm given to construct my video.
Hourglass + Eggs + Boiling water = Video.
Althougth I did admittedly have to chop a minute off the end of the track and gentle fade, due to the time frame of the eggs boiling.
There was no loss to the music itself, because of the repetitive nature of the style of music.

Natraully I can't resist adding my little strange black and white character that pops up now and then in such videos as this one. 
He is this rather bizzare blend of a Japanese horror character with a twist of Marcel Marceau.
He has appeared before in a few other videos such as Holding Cell and the Kraken videos.
I used some interesting looking effects this time round and played about with green screen by simply spraying a small canvas green and overlayering footage onto that green canvas and finally turned it to black and white. 
Totally cost to make this video was £36 or roughly $58 and six eggs...!

On a final note it was said not that long ago in a comment that some of my work had the feel of an "Art Installation"  Which I thought was rather lovely and so I have selected a few video's that I have made over the years and made a new playlist on YouTube called "Art Installation"
I hope at some point you get to go through them and have a watch...
Please vist the Soundcloud link on the YouTube video itself and support the artist and his music.
And please share on any media site... Every little helps new artists ideas and concepts get noticed.

YouTube Video link

The art of Toking

A set of three video based around smoke & smoking.
Naturally this isn't going to get much in the way of taffic on YouTube.
It's a little bit too arty-farty and I sometimes feel myself being somewhat
disappointed over this.
Although it was nice to read a comment about the music I wrote for the piece.
Most tend to forget I actually write the music as well produce these odd videos.
I guess at the end of the day it really doesn't matter that much, its just another
video that goes into a folder and filed away.
And I just move forwards onto the next idea & project...
It is strange how Kathleen Dawson or Kitty D has come out tops, out of everything
I made here on YouTube over the four years.
She is funny though...
YouTube Video Link

FAKE BEANS ON TOAST - added Robin Williams sauce

Uhm... I held back for a while before writing anything about the sad passing of Robin Williams.
I understand the outpouring of heartfelt tributes over Robin's death, but personally I thought it might be better to wait and actually find out if there was a little more to it all.
And sure enough, a few days after his death, we found out that Robin was in the early stages of
Parkinson's Disease.
Naturally, and as we all know, Robin was indeed a very funny man and like most great comedians, here was truly the humbling sad clown, suffering from a range of disorders from drug addiction to alcoholism & depression.
I dare say that these years of highs and lows, the good times and the bad, more than likely paid
some contribution to Robin's diagnosis of early Parkinson's Disease.
It's difficult to say what triggered Robin's final decision that day to take his own life. Was it the depression, or the simple fact that the world in which we live has simply gone to the dogs and what's the point anymore!
All I do know is that Robin wasn't alone in his struggle.
Millions upon millions of men, women, and children suffer from depression all over this tiny little
planet.  And the mere fact that even if you have it all, that really doesn't matter.
Depression doesn't take that into account.
I wrote this very short piece many years ago while suffering my ongoing battle with depression,
drugs, and drink:

"Illness is nothing more than an infected misprint
A twisted tainted pattern
That knows not time nor person."

Tony Hancock
Peter Sellers
Spike Milligan
Ruby Wax
Stephen Fry
Lenny Bruce
Richard Pryor

The fact of the matter is that Robin isn't the first well known celebrity to take their
own life over or through depression, and he won't be the last.
The story will generate and snowball communication about the illness, but sadly another news story will take its place in a few days' or weeks' time, ie, boyband found smoking drugs or US sends in the troops, etc... which in itself is very, very depressing.

Please keep talking and keep being honest, not only to yourself but to your friends and loved ones. Depression is a lonely empty road... so lonely that not even tumbleweeds dare roll by.

Robin Williams RIP. You were never alone :(

Dr Who THE MASTER

Don't get me wrong I think Dr Who is an out standing Sci-Fi fantasy T.V. show.
As a kid from the 1970s Sci-Fi and T.V. was a dream come true.
But I never rated the character of Dr Who...!
Now the The Master... Now thats a character... A character I work jump through hoops to play.
I love the wicked madness, its almost like there are three personalities.
The GOOD the BAD and the LOST CHILD OF TIME...